lammy

FINALLY school is nearly over, and thank god for no more wet labs for the year, biochem was starting to do my head in -,- pippeting shit all the time is so bloody pointless it doesnt take a year worth of teaching to show u how to perform a transfer! had many reports to write up, most are now done but an uneasy feeling is still within me =[. Alot has been on my mind it comes and goes, its like you never know how you would feel, its like bipolar disorder in a way, when your mind is free your happy, but when the thoughts return to haunt you, your all stirred up. The other day i asked michelle (my uni friend) do i look troubled, she replies no and she spontaneously constructs that i am too carefree or too laid back to care about anything to be troubled. I started to wonder the fact that maybe no one really knows when i am troubled. She sees me practically the whole week and this is the image i portray, a carefree laid back guy, but for the last 2 weeks it has most likely been an under average period =[ .i was stuck with a load stack of work from uni, with weekends being occupied at work and after work i would have to come over to my sisters place to help out because she recently moved along with many troublesome matters on my mind. Sometimes i wish i could share my thoughts, but then again i think to myself no one would proberbly understand not only that but there is no solution if there was it wouldnt be so troublesome in the first place @,@. People say talking to others help you feel better, and i wonder how it does so, can listening to another person really change or mend something i mean anything can listen why dont people just talk to anything? but then If no then why do people share their problems when they know there is no solution? could it be for pity/sympathy? for attention? or because they think or maybe even hope that it will change something. now i cant remember what i was talking about orginally LOL cbf zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz feel to knackered to do anything these days =[ well its only another 5 weeks till queensland =D, i really need this break just to get away from work, family the whole lot. it should be fun and adventerous. So i guess lets study hard and then party hard!!