lammy

uni is over and the holiday now kicks in!!! its been a while since ive felt so free from everything and it feels good for a change! but when there is so much spare time upon myself you cant help it but think and realize the problems you have, and unfortunately you just cant pack and hide away the problems which kind of makes me miss uni cause i was able to occupy myself with work/uni which made things easier to avoid. Even though i know what is right and what is wrong in the situation i am in, no matter how hard i try or how hard i want to do the right thing i always fall back to step 1 and it bugs me because ive found myself stuck in a situation where i cant resolve nor walk away but rather keep it within me. sometimes i feel like i want to share this scenario but i dont know how to, its almost like no one would understand because i dont myself, why are there always complications in life !!

FINALLY school is nearly over, and thank god for no more wet labs for the year, biochem was starting to do my head in -,- pippeting shit all the time is so bloody pointless it doesnt take a year worth of teaching to show u how to perform a transfer! had many reports to write up, most are now done but an uneasy feeling is still within me =[. Alot has been on my mind it comes and goes, its like you never know how you would feel, its like bipolar disorder in a way, when your mind is free your happy, but when the thoughts return to haunt you, your all stirred up. The other day i asked michelle (my uni friend) do i look troubled, she replies no and she spontaneously constructs that i am too carefree or too laid back to care about anything to be troubled. I started to wonder the fact that maybe no one really knows when i am troubled. She sees me practically the whole week and this is the image i portray, a carefree laid back guy, but for the last 2 weeks it has most likely been an under average period =[ .i was stuck with a load stack of work from uni, with weekends being occupied at work and after work i would have to come over to my sisters place to help out because she recently moved along with many troublesome matters on my mind. Sometimes i wish i could share my thoughts, but then again i think to myself no one would proberbly understand not only that but there is no solution if there was it wouldnt be so troublesome in the first place @,@. People say talking to others help you feel better, and i wonder how it does so, can listening to another person really change or mend something i mean anything can listen why dont people just talk to anything? but then If no then why do people share their problems when they know there is no solution? could it be for pity/sympathy? for attention? or because they think or maybe even hope that it will change something. now i cant remember what i was talking about orginally LOL cbf zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz feel to knackered to do anything these days =[ well its only another 5 weeks till queensland =D, i really need this break just to get away from work, family the whole lot. it should be fun and adventerous. So i guess lets study hard and then party hard!!

so here i am on a thursday night, knowing that i’ll end up staying up late because i had a coffea at like 7pm, (cravings)! im so bored to the extent that i was chatting to melva and made her felt guilty for not being supportive LOL, have a read

melva san says:
lol
stop saying dw
make me worry
Peter - zzz says:
ok then how about ……
i dont know
lol
* melva san says:
that means something is wrong
Peter - zzz says:
no
it means
nothing
* melva san says:
well if u wanna talk about it
im sitting here
Peter - zzz says:
LOL
ok
worried about me/.
 ?
* melva san says:
lol
if it makes u feel better
yeah
i worry abt u sometimes
Peter - zzz says:
LOL
im only messing with u
LOL
LOL
LOL
HAHAHAHAHA
* melva san says:
lol
ur so gay

i guess its fun to mess with ppl, it kinda shows u if they do care or not, but in this case melva did care LAWL how nice of her, anyways enough about her, what else is there to say, hmm ve been feeling pretty tired i guess, havent been getting enough deep sleeps =[ unfortunately, i guess i think too much, but in the end i dont even really remember what i was thinking of and when i do try to remember i end up thinking of something else which then gets very complicated…zzz no idea how it ends up doing so but it just does! and GOSH my allergies are playing up on me like 24/7 and i HATE IT, it comes and goes in like mins. so the other day i bumped in to an old friend a girl i had a thing for but never really confessed lol, was quite odd because her bf was also there but its not like we had a bad past or bond, but alot came to my mind! i still had a thing for her but there was no rational reason that i can find of, but possibly because its something i never got to have. BUT anyways it ended up being a short talk the general hi and how its going and ill see you around. now im trying to think what else is there to say just to kill some time. sigh yes I FORGOT CENTRELINK IS FKING CUTTING MY YOUTH ALLOWANCE well the more i work the less they give, its like they’ve designed the system to prevent ppl from living freely, their surpose to support FULL TIME STUDENTS not make them stress more about money! i mean books, spending, bills, it adds up alot and they think that by giving you about 480 a month is alot? its fkn little as, sure it helps but most ppl who dont have wealthy parents to support them have to work to earn their needs, and the fkn government doesnt seem to understand that being a student there are alot of needs and so they should support us and encourage us to work to earn more money so we can support ourselves, but in the end if you think about it IF you work so much they are gona end up cutting all ur youth allowance so why bother to even work when its gona end up being roughly the same amount of income your gona have. this system is fuked and it does my head in! anyways lets focus on the positive side for a change! its my 2nd year in medicinal chemistry and so i now have the privilage to choose my field in chemistry, which are the following biological chem, medicinal chem, and carbonyl chem sounds boring?? well ITS NOT LONGER BORING well at least for biological chem LOL because there is this FKN HOT AS (POSSIBLY A MILF) professor LOL and she has this accent, well lets just say she has potential to make my day if she presents her self well on the day bahahahahahahhahah hmm and the professor in my pharmacology shes OK nothing to special about her except for her jugs but more on that later when more observations are made, possibly in summer when she might wear a revealing top LOL gosh im so bored! hmm i think this will do for the night its

So i had a meeting at work today, it turned out pretty awkward at first because 2/3 of the entire group i’ve never even met them before (most people were from other stores) but amazingly when we were going through the “awesome experience” something that trains you to be a super dooper salesperson because we get shoped by mystery shoppers and if you perform under the expectation then you pretty much suck…meh? anyways there was this part of the meeting where we had to do role play, one person is a customer and the other has the salesperson bla bla bla etc!! AND the best part is i got to be partners with the cutest chick there (danny)! she had blue eyes!! ^.^ how hot is that hahahaha, anyway she works at highpoint, so then i thought i lived around the corner! so why not ask for a few shift at highpoint store as well!! this would then give me a chance to get to know her more!! without any suspicions hahahah but meh! that wont really take place soon untill another month or so since our business is a in a quiet season! =[ but for some reason it cheered me up when i was interacting with her, she was the highlight of my week… for some irrational reason thats how i felt meh? sometimes i miss dating, chasing, and feeling the thrill! i guess seeing danny made me remember how i use to feel, and that i should get back in the martket!! and focus less on cars! bahahaha but who knows?! we shall see how it goes.

its just another day where i dont have work/uni or any plans, so i decided to sleep in! but no surprise I didn’t really manage to get much extra sleep =[ but I did stay in bed and naturally I personally have reflection moments. (I think too much lol) I’m already nearly 20 years of age, going to graduate soon, getting a new car SEXY accord euro!! I feel such a grown up. So what next in life? Get a job once I graduate and maybe a new car and get a house? Is that it in life? Or do I want to travel the world with my occupation and explore? And just post pone settling down? I don’t know what to plan for next =[ I don’t want to work and pay off debt for a car and house and then get married! Life is too short for this I guess its partially a reason why i’m single (less restriction and more freedom in respect to choices in life) well I am considering what my sister did, leave home and work out of Melbourne, I think I need to explore more other then Victoria I’ve only been to Vietnam (well and Singapore but I was young so doesn’t really count). Nearly 20 years of age and I haven’t achieved anything I find extraordinary . And now im thinking in my head am what im typing even making any sense ? cause im just typing what ever pops in to my head, and now I just realized im talking to myself LOL blah ! life is too short to be confused or wonder around! I need to decide what to do with the rest of my life by the end of 2010 until then I hope for someone or something to inspire me so that I may dedicate my life to, to make it meaningful well time to go and pick up my niece

so i had my car fixed and its a fkn long story, BUT ITS FIXED!! i was so happy that when i lost my phone i didnt even notice it!! (WTF WAS I DOING/THINKING) and it took me an hour to find it (GG) ALL THIS HAPPENED ON A FKN SUNDAY NIGHT AFTER WORK WHAT A FKN DAY now im off to dinner then coffea with my ex……. (yeah my ex i know what your thinking kim when your reading this LOL) and that shall be on anotehr blog ! we shall see how it play out!

lol MY FIRST SERIOUS BLOG!! seriously!! hmmmm how do you know what you want? when your subconscious says one thing, and you yourself say another, how can you take action when you cant compromise something with yourself, sounds confusing!!?!?! well thats how i feel today! “confused”

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if you read all this you deserve to know this, YOUR BORED JUST LIKE ME =D LOL

Joe checked his phone and saw that he had two new text messages, both from his mother. The first one he opened said, Umm sorry hun, that wasnt meant 4 u, just pretend u didnt c that. The earlier one said, my pussy is sooo wet, thinkin of what i will do 4 u next time we r 2getha again, im so horny, i cant wait. After a moment’s consideration, he typed back, I can’t wait 2 c u again 2, my big hard cock is dyin 4 sum more of ur special attention… oh, oops, hi mum. Much flirting and teasing went back and forth on the phones until they signed off. That night Rachel came home from work. She asked how his day went. He replied that it was fine and watched TV. Rachel told him that his father was out of town tonight so it was just the two of them. He grabbed his phone and texted her, even though she was sitting right next to him, asking, so whens dinner & wot u got in mind. She replied for to go clean his room. The texting turned to sexier matters. Rachel texted about how it would be fun to get fucked but she could not do it because it was too naughty. Joe wanted to know what position she liked. The tension built to a head until Rachel set her phone down and said, what are you going to do about it. Joe stuttered a reply. Rachel said that he could not fuck her but had some other ideas. She told him that it would be very naughty if he jacked off for her. She told him that he had 10 seconds to get his pants off before she changed her mind. Joe was out of his pants in 5 seconds. Rachel was taken back because she did not think he would do it. She leaned back against him and told him to start jerking. She stared as he jerked his cock until she felt his hand on her ass. She said, mmmm, you are being a little touchy don’t you think Joe, touching your mother’s behind. Rachel slid to the floor, her fingers spread out as her hands slowly slid up his hairy thighs, and as her hands moved over his hips and up his sides. She licked the inside of his thighs and moved to his cock. Joe said, I cannot believe my own mother is licking my dick. Joe groaned in pleasure. Rachel asked him if he wanted to take it one naughty step further. She reached into her purse, opened it and pulled out a condom. She held it up as she smiled at him, I would not want to get pregnant by my own son now would I? No, we would not want that. He slid the condom on. She stepped out of her panties but left the skirt on as she stepped up and straddled him. Rachel said, now, remember I said that you cannot fuck me. He replied that he did. She said, well, that does not mean that I cannot fuck you. She slid down onto his hard cock taking it deep inside her. She rode his cock until he said he was ready to cum. She told him to cum inside her and pressed her lips firmly against his. She climbed off his cock and pulled the condom off. She held it up and examined the load he shot. She upended the condom and squeezed the cum out onto his still hard cock. She licked and sucked all the cum off his cock. She asked him if he wanted to do it again and if he had a condom. He replied that he did not use them. She was still horny. She climbed back onto his cock and bounced up and down. She said she would do anything to keep having him fuck her. Joe said then take off your dress because I want you naked while you fuck me. Rachel stripped off her dress and bra, never stopping her fucking. She rode him to orgasm. She said she had another naughty thought. She climbed off and told him to stand up. She sat on the couch and started sucking his pussy juice covered cock. She groaned as she blew him. She sucked him until he was ready to cum and jerked him off onto her tongue.